As a child you gave me no freedom.

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                                               FREEDOM
As a child you gave me no freedom. You guarded my every move.
I couldn't and didn't understand.

I thought you were the meanest person on earth, yet I always wanted to be near you. Your words could make me tremble, but I never wanted you to leave me alone.


As I grew older you allowed me the freedom to walk a mile - just don't run son. You gave me the freedom to laugh, learn, and cry - as long as your heart stays grounded son.
Then things changed. I could see it in your eyes. I heard your words, yet your eyes told a different story...a story this grown man couldn't understand. You said you were ok, and I believed you.
You would never lie to me mama.
Now the truth has come out. Well as much as you cared to share, and I feel like a child again. My heart ripped from my chest. A grown man broken.
It's going to be ok mama.
As I write these words I cry. Remembering how stubborn you were. Those last few days of watching your body do what your spirit wouldn't...give up.
I knew you were suffering 
I knew you was scared
I knew...
You would have never seen me cry like I'm crying right now mama. Grown men aren't supposed to cry.
Now I realize that freedom I foolishly wanted from you, you could not give. It's always been your nature to hold on. It was your last day, your final resting place when I realized what freedom really was.
Sitting in the back room as you lay in rest, I was alone and in my thoughts. Freedom was given. GOD intervened and freed us both. You from your physical pain and me from the emotional. Some people cried; most were silent...
I smiled mama - I am free!

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